"UNCERTAINTY"

I'm not perfect, I never tried to be. I've made mistakes. I've taken the easy way out. I've lied to my friends. I've hidden the truth so many times from so many people. I've hurt people, and I've even done it on purpose. I've left people behind. I've said things that I didn't mean. I'm no better than anyone, anywhere. I'm human. I have faults, and I'm not afraid to admit that. I want to change, but I won't. Because that's what we do. That's what we've always done. We list our faults like a grocery list, and we move on, expecting everything to somehow change itself. It never will. I will never change. I will never be perfect. I will always make mistakes. I'll, more often than not, take the easy way out. I will lie, hide the truth, hurt people, leave people behind, and say things I don't mean for the rest of my life...

- I'll keep some feelings hidden because no one would understand, and even if they did understand, there wouldn't be anything that anyone could do to make the feelings disappear.
All these things that I've been through has its own reasons.So I come up with these thoughts

Be always unpredictable, touch people in anyway, say the truth even if it hurts, Just be YOURSELF!

Bringing back memories all through out the year is so hard to be true. I don't know what life that lies ahead in the future. I'm still uncertain of what I want, whom I will marry, what kind of people I should go on with for the rest of my life. If I could ask a reason why I wanted to live, is for that special someone whom I doesn't know yet until now. Precisely I'm not that showy enough for people to determine whether I've been hurt or not. This is what I always wanted. I don't want them to know the portal exit of mine. I used to have ups and downs, too. I’ve had difficult moments, tears, pain and loneliness. I used to sit on my armchair and wonder: why am I here in the first place? Those were some painful moments, but the very fact that I’m writing these lines is enough to tell you that I’m still here. That is the point of every failure – to make you move on.

Living with  8 people in one room is not as easy as what I've been thinking before. Balance is always common. You need to know your place, know your limits and try to put your self on their own shoes. Stand up on your own, don't be so pathetic or else you will be stub at your back. Keep your own secret. Write a journal, indulge yourself with top ten things that you wanted that is not yet been granted. Familiarizing the place, understanding one's feeling. You could probably sorted things out on your mind, not unless if you will not tend to be a pickled minded person. No holds barred. If you wanna reach the peak of success, just go with the flow. Don't be a bitch, bitch, bitch. Fuck all those shits, it's bullshit.